However, the next part of my journey began when I read Midnight Blue by LJ Shen, book that will forever go down in history as my first devoured rock star romance. I was so moved and so inspired by this story, that I began to write my first rock star romance called Daisies & Devin, an ode to my love for music, poetry, and Edgar Allan Poe. It was also my first “difficult” book, where I delved into a lesser acknowledged side of drug addiction, the side that’s hidden and maintained a little better. And believe me, it wasn’t easy for me to write, but it was also crucial and cathartic, and from that story, I learned something about myself. With Daisies & Devin I realized, I can write my love stories, I can keep writing the witty dialogue that makes me laugh and the poetic prose that sweeps me away, but I can also make a difference. I can use the voice I’ve been given, delivered through the written word, and shine a light on issues that maybe aren’t talked about enough, or should be talked about more.
It was then that I knew I wanted to write about a disease that has made an enormous impact on my life, and that disease is Ulcerative Colitis.
You see, my mother has been living with the disease since around the time I was born, so the discussion of guts and their functions has always been a routine part of my life, as well as an awareness for the other debilitating symptoms of an inflammatory bowel disease. It wasn’t until I was older though, when my sister was diagnosed as well, that I realized the topic was nearly taboo in nature. Because apparently, nobody likes to hear about or acknowledge what comes along with having such a disease, so in turn, people living with IBD are almost forced to suffer alone. And in a world where we are taught acceptance, how is that right or fair?
Yet, it was for that same reason I was scared to write the story. I kept asking myself, who wants to read a love story about a guy dealing with a friggin’ bowel disease? How is that romantic? How can I make that remotely sexy? The social stigmas had stood in my way, and for months, they kept me from writing. So, I held the story in and moved on to other challenging, but far less stigmatized, subject matters.