It all began with my English lit degree. I was coming off a Madame Bovary/Portrait of a Lady/Thomas Hardy bender and I was burnt out. I turned to romance, a genre I hadn’t read since I binged on my mum’s Mills and Boon stash back in the ‘90s. And, let me tell you, those early 2000s romance novels were a balm to my weary soul. Books in which women always win and in which they never, ever die of a mysterious wasting disease somehow sparked by a brief and miserable bout of premarital sex. Far from it, the sex in modern romance is joyous and no one is punished afterwards. There is so much power in that, and I was addicted. I quickly realised I wanted to write one.
Madwomen in the Attic
Have you ever thought about how many so-called madwomen abound in Victorian literature? Off the top of my head, examples can be found in Jane Eyre, The Woman in White, Lady Audley’s Secret, and many, many more. In the 20th century, when Jean Rhys talked about writing Wide Sargasso Sea, her novel about Jane Eyre’s mad antagonist Bertha Mason, she said: “She seemed such a poor ghost, I thought I’d write her a life.” And she was right. So often the madwoman is a threatening figure, there to ruin things for our protagonists. Or they’re little better than a plot trigger, wafting around in a filmy white robe to add mystery and suspense. Rhys certainly succeeded in her intent to give Bertha Mason a life, but guess what Bertha didn’t get…
A happy ending of course.
Let’s get personal
What kills me about all the madwomen in literature is that we so rarely find out what’s actually wrong with them. All we get are words like ‘nervous’ and euphemisms like ‘violent emotion’. What do these things even mean? I care about this question because—and this is where it gets personal—the fact is, if I’d lived in the Victorian era, I’d have been a prime candidate for incarceration. I suffer from clinical depression (which I control with medication), I have anxiety, and I’m extremely argumentative (which wouldn’t have gone down well with your average Victorian alienist/mad doctor.) None of this makes me mad, but that wouldn’t have mattered because, back then, once a doctor applied that word to you—and they applied it liberally—your opinion no longer mattered. After all, who would listen to a lunatic? Mad was a three-letter word loaded with power. Regardless of gender, it was a word that could get you locked up for life while your family stole your fortune.
Words have power
But that was then, right? Things are different now.
Of course they are, but before you get too comfortable, consider the way in which words like ‘hysteria’ and ‘crazy’ are used. Hysteria, in particular, is a term applied almost exclusively to women. Here and now, it’s still used to silence us. Remember when Kamala Harris questioned Jeff Sessions about his links with Russia, and Jason Miller called her “hysterical”? How about when certain sectors of the media dubbed participants of the Women’s March “rabid” and “crazies”? This is terminology used not only to silence women but to keep them out of power.
In The Madness of Miss Grey, the people who wield these kinds of words as weapons are the bad guys, though most of them don’t realize it. As in life, villains tend to think of themselves as the hero of their own story. Once certain labels are applied to Helen, the eponymous Miss Grey, she loses what few rights she originally possessed to choose her own fate.
Luckily for her, this is a romance novel, and I matched her with William Carter, who is not only an excellent doctor but also an inherently good person. He understands the power words hold and, what’s more, he’s mindful of the ethical problem his attraction to her presents. But as much as I love him, it was important to me that Helen have the resilience and strength to save herself. After all the tragic endings I’d read for literary mental health patients, I didn’t only want her to survive the darkness of the asylum. I wanted her to triumph over it, and I wanted her to have a big, fat happily ever after with hot sex and an amazing man.
Why does it matter?
Think of this particular HEA as a big eff you to a society that still, in the year of our Lord 2019, stigmatizes mental illness, a society that still teaches us that women need to be “nice” to succeed or that women who speak out are hysterical.
Thankfully, when I look around at #MeToo and #TimesUp, I think we might finally be done with “nice.” We’re done with allowing ourselves to be silenced by the way others wield their words.